The down side of college: stress. I have terrible time management skills and I'm starting to suffer from it. Today is the day when I will hopefully end that. Where is all the stress coming from?
1. School. Taking 17 credits with all of them science classes save for one is pretty stressful. Not having a work schedule or routine down does not help either; just makes things worse. So much for freshmen year when I could just study a few days before the tests to get A's. Change, I need to change.
2. Jobs. I currently work at ODU for the Alumni association calling people for money. This job isn't that stressful, very boring and sometimes just ridiculous, but it's easy pay for what you do. Talking for 3 hours straight can get a bit hefty but you learn to become a robot and say the same thing over and over again. The second job is the coffee shop on at the Heart Hospital where everyone else from IV has worked. The reason for this add on is to try and determine which of these two jobs is more beneficial for my schedule and money making. If I keep pull it off I"m going to try and do both with one being entirely in the morning with the other job entirely in the evening. I need the money for next semester and household expenses so not having a job at all just will not due. Also, if the coffee shop job is a lot better than the phone calling one than I'll quit the calling job so I can start going to IV large group aka Crash. Since I never go, I never see anyone nor meet anyone new. Some new people at the retreat have never seen me nor knew that I was a small group leader. So not going to crash makes me feel less involved but I'm still involved, so it's a worthless feeling to have.
3. Small group leader. I'm having a hard time to meet up with my co-leader and trying to prepare for myself small group, well I would like to personally prepare better than I have been. But I shouldn't let school, jobs and other stressful activities keep me from spending time with God or diving into the word because I'll start drifting away from Him without even knowing it.
It's a stressful time now but it'll be over soon; just gotta discipline myself to buckle down figure out a schedule and do my work because I'm missing out on some really cool Godly stuff that 's happening now due to my busy schedule which is not cool. So goodbye stress, I'm done with you. Time for me to conquer you and move on cuz I'm missing out on God because of it.
"That doesn't kill me, can only make me stronger..." -Stronger by Kanye West. Usually not a fan at all with Kanye but like this song.
