Hello peeps of the online world. This is my first entry in my first blog. You're reading this because you're interested in reading my thoughts and opinions about some stuff or you're just bored and have nothing to do so you read random people's blogs.
I called my blog the Here and Now because while I was creating it my brother Jonathan, Andrew, and I were playing monopoly (I lost terribly) and on the side of the box said, "The Here and Now" and that fits with my train of thought: I try to concentrate on the present while remembering the past and looking forward to the future, which is a hard thing to do.
Being stressed about the future has never been an issue with me because I rarely think about the future. I try to avoid talking about it as well. Which is a good thing, to an extent. It is a good thing because it gives me time to focus on the here and now and not miss out on the present. I have less worries because I spend less time worrying about the future. I have to give a shout out to Jesus on that one, "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." Matthew 6:34. Actually verses 25-34 all relate about how we shouldn't worry about our lives.
But this can be a problem if mis- interrupted. Yes, we are called to be dependent on God but that doesn't mean that we are lazy and just sit on the couch all day saying, "God will do everything for me and I don't have to do a thing". Uh, no, not at all. If that was the case then we would all be puppets, having no free will; thus, no love. But I'm jumping around.
I believe that we are to be dependent on God but that requires us to act and to move toward God and his calling for us. He will do what we can't do ourselves, like save our souls. He will not give us an A on a test because we can do that ourselves. But recently I have been thinking about the future and am pretty excited about it. This may seem weird but I have this bad tendency to regret the past which causes me to fear the future. But recently, well the past few months, I have been more excited about it and more importantly, excited about how God is shaping my life and is going to use me to do His will. But the one thing I am kind of struggling with is trying to determine what God has in store for me, specifically what my "career" should be. Yeah, I've been stressing about that a lot recently because I don't want to pursue something that comes into conflict with what God has planned for me, but it is hard to determine what He does have planned for me. So I kind of feel stuck of not knowing what to do, what to pursue. I guess I should just pursue what God has placed in my heart, but is it what God has placed there or what I have placed there? Man, this is tough. I guess I need to go back to Matthew 6:25-34 and just depend on God. Yeah, easier said than done.
2 comments:
Welcome to the blogging world, my friend. I hope you write more than I usually wind up writing on mine, but maybe that'll change. I miss everyone from ODU! Can't wait til we're back on campus again! Brace yourself, though...the "here and now" goes faster after freshman year. That's my little word of wisdom. :)
Andrew...keep writing, and I think that I'll give in and create one and then you can read all about my life too...sound fun?
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